This past weekend I was touring New York’s Hudson Valley with my son. At the Roosevelt home at Hyde Park, we ran into a couple of gentlemen who urged us to make a stop at West Point, further south. “The river curves in an unusual way there,” they told us. “And the Yankees ran a chain across it to keep the British out.”

The same technique employed over three hundred years later? The next day, we headed to West Point to take a look. The river there is indeed lovely and curving.

Both the Americans and British knew that passage on the Hudson River was strategically important to the Revolutionary war effort. Americans wanted to slow or block the passage of ships on the river, and then attack them with cannons.

In late 1776 Henry Wisner, one of New York’s representatives to the Continental Congress, recommended the placement of chains in strategic locations along the Hudson River. The Americans eventually put chains across the river at several existing forts.

The largest and most important chain project was the one at West Point. There, the river narrowed, and curved so sharply that, together with winds, tides and current, ships already had to slow to navigate the passage.

The Great Chain was completed by Sterling Iron Works and put in place in 1778. Cannons were installed in forts on both sides of the river to destroy ships when they slowed to a halt.

The 600 yards (550 m) chain contained huge iron links, each two feet in length and weighing 114 pounds (52 kg). The links were floated down the river to West Point on log rafts, and then the rafts holding chains were united.

On 30 April 1778, the chain was in place across the river. Its southern end was secured to a small cove on the West Bank of the river and its northern end was anchored to Constitution Island. The chain’s tension was frequently adjusted, and until 1783, the chain was removed each winter and reinstalled each spring to avoid destruction by ice.

Did the chain work? Nobody knows, because the British never attempted to run the chain!

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Sankar’s job was winding down. He had already started working on projects in other parts of the world. It was time to head home. “We’ll be home for Christmas,” I told Angela on the phone. I loved those sentimental words.

“No,” she replied. “I want one more Christmas in Istanbul.” Greg agreed.

Sankar and I were surprised, but pleased.

Even though our kids had visited the past summer, we had new things to show them. The Panorama Museum, with its 360-degree floor-to-ceiling murals that put visitors in the middle of the battle for Constantinople. Akdeniz Hatay Sofrası, where you could call ahead and order delectable chicken or lamb roasted in a salt casing. Sensus, a new wine bar next to the Galata Tower. The Anglican church we’d belatedly joined, Crimean Memorial.

On Christmas Eve, the temperature in the fifties, the four of us drove to the nearby suburb of Gayretepe (gayret = endeavor; tepe=hill) and left the car in a parking ramp. Then we jumped on the metro to Taksim Square. We walked the length of Istiklal Avenue, passing roasted chestnut vendors, window-shopping, and admiring the holiday lights that arched over the iconic street. We ran into Pastor Ian, sitting outside a coffee shop smoking a cigar with a friend, and stopped at Sensus for a glass of wine and some hors d’oeuvres. Fortified, we headed to church.

We arrived at the service early to get seats. The church was filled with people we knew. Robbie, a Californian who had married a Turk and worked in public relations for the AKP Party. Robbie had always been particularly friendly to me. Professor William Hale and his wife, Kathleen, Brits with whom we’d gone on ARIT trips. I had been surprised at William’s fluency in Turkish. Beate, a long-time Istanbulu from Germany, who had invited me to dinner at her historic Terabya home one weekend when Sankar was away.

We gave up our seats to Warren Winkler, an eighty-something American physician who had worked in Turkey since World War II, and his stylish Dutch wife, Ineke. We had attended a party at their lovely,  unusual home, a former Turkish bath.

I love evening church services and this was our first in our new church’s late nineteenth century building, with its choir screen separating the altar from the nave, adorned with frescoes including one of the Christ child grasping a simit (Turkish bagel).

After the service, we spoke with a British couple we had recently met. They were new in Istanbul. Now I hugged her goodbye, feeling wistful: all the confusion and exhilaration of the city was ahead for her. For us, well, movers would arrive as soon as the kids left.

Ümit was taking our guest beds and the desk Sankar had so thoughtfully purchased for me before I arrived. We were shipping most everything else back home. But what to do with our liquor? We owned a surprising amount, given that we rarely drank it. A large bottle of rum, which I’d bought for a cake recipe—a smaller size wasn’t available and, with fifty percent tax, the bottle had cost close to $75. Two bottles of rakı, Christmas gifts from 3M Turkey (along, one year, with a carton of Marlboros). A bottle of gin, and some scotch left over from when Sankar’s brother visited.

We decided to give all of these spirits to our 3M friends, Gökhan and Burcu, who had invited the four of us for a final meal at their apartment. That evening, we loaded all our bottles into the trunk of our car for the drive over the bridge and into Asia. When we reached their place, we discovered that the rum had spilled all over the inside of the trunk. We carried the rest of the bottles into their apartment and forgot about the rum.

We stayed late at Gökhan and Burcu’s apartment that night, and didn’t get back home until after midnight. The kids were flying out early the next morning; we’d be back in the car again by 5:30.

It was still dark as we set out for the airport. Sankar took the freeway entrance toward Atatürk International and accelerated confidently; there was little traffic at this time of day. But then he noticed several police cars, and an officer standing on the left side of the road, motioning us over. We stopped—had we been speeding?—and Sankar rolled down his window. The officer leaned in and without a word, stuck a plastic device in Sankar’s face. Then, issuing a sharp command, he shoved the breathalyzer right into his mouth.

The car still reeked with the fumes from the spilled rum, and I turned toward the kids, my eyes wide. Sankar passed the test and the officer waved us on. But we were shaken. “Can I get sick from having something like that in my mouth?” he asked.

It was the flip side of that Turkish order and kontrol we’d so often admired.

I had started leaving Istanbul months before our departure. I began by saying goodbye to seasonal treats I knew I’d miss. In April: grand gardens of tulips in every shade of pink, red, and yellow, and hundreds of ordinary roadside plantings. Goodbye, lale!

In June: mulberries, little white sweetnesses dangling from tree branches, fortifying my ascent from sea to apartment. Goodbye dut!

In summer: the juiciest, most luscious melons I have ever tasted, some with orange or yellow fruit, others bright green. They lasted for a while after harvest, but finally in mid-fall I ate my last one. Goodbye, wonderful kavun!

Then it was time for pomegranates, ruby red and bursting with flavor. They were still in season as I left Asia Minor, but goodbye nar!

And the sea, a visual reward. I would so miss those unexpected glimpses of pale blue water shimmering at the turn of a street, or a spray of mist as the car rounded a bend. I didn’t say goodbye, but I tried to fix each dreamlike view in my mind.

I also began saying goodbye to the language I’d tried so hard to learn. Ever since my summer visit home, my Turkish skills had been weakening. I could no longer understand conversations as well as I had in May and June, and my speech became more hesitant. “From now on, I’m going to listen to at least an hour of Turkish television each day,” I declared in my final months, but then avoided doing so.

As I intensified my wanderings around the golden city, checking off items to see one last time, I was pulling back. While I tried to stay in the moment, I could also see myself as I’d soon be: far away.

Maybe 55 had been the perfect age to meet Istanbul. I had been ready for its melancholy, what Orhan Pamuk calls the city’s huzun. The visitor is constantly reminded that Istanbul is old, and it is a reminder that you, too, will be old.

Filled with huzun, I had, more than once, longed for an entire life lived in Istanbul. To know all of its wisdom and secrets. I had learned to make difficult personal changes here. I had learned to create optimism and to cope with things I didn’t agree with. I had learned to accept lavish hospitality that I, myself, could not reciprocate. I had been humbled in Istanbul, but I had also stood up for what I believe in. But surely there was a lot more the city could teach me.

In the apartment when all was quiet, I took stock. Had our marriage improved? Had we made a better go of things here than in Costa Rica? Yes to both. Our marriage had been strengthened through discovery of shared interests, particularly in ancient and medieval history. This discovery had occurred in great part because I had opened myself up to it. I had set out for Turkey with a positive attitude, and had (mostly) refrained from complaining.

Had Turkey solved all of our problems? Surely not. I still lamented my lack of professional success, and sometimes, took out negative feelings on Sankar. And Sankar still had a tendency to brush off my concerns. But I smiled as I recalled his frequent efforts to make me happy here, cobbling together bits of Turkish, Spanish, and English to help us find the way to our next historic treasure.

Turkey had showed me that I could overwrite the patterns we’d developed in Costa Rica. That I could break the cycle of resentment and blame, and instead speak up and ask for resources to help me succeed. When a space was cleared that had once been full of negativity, there was room in our marriage to let common interests bloom. We had grown closer through our magical explorations with ARIT and by hosting numerous visitors. We had made wonderful new friends, and we had a list of Turkish places, such as the lost Armenian city of Ani, that we still wanted to visit together. Forever now, at least when we talked about Turkey (and we would talk about it a great deal), we’d talk as a team.

The most challenging experiences often produce the most rewards. The year spent teaching—the hardest job I’d ever had—had actually been a balm. It had provided a crucial sense of accomplishment, enhancing my sense of self and easing our fraught expatriate relationship. It had given me insights into the Turkish culture that I wouldn’t have gained sitting in our apartment or hanging out with other expatriates. And it had allowed me to be the kind of American I wanted to be: hardworking and dedicated. For a long time after I left Turkey, I would think of ÖzU as my employer, and its teachers as my colleagues.

My job had also pointed the way to a new career: teaching English as a Second Language.

I was proud of how I’d handled the challenge of Turkey, and I was already looking back on the experience with satisfaction. I would not only miss Turkey, but I’d miss myself in Turkey. I had, for the most part, been wise here.

Finally, our last morning—a Saturday in January. We’d already bid farewell to our Turkish and expatriate friends, our apartment, and our neighborhood, moving for our two final days to the Radisson Blu in Ortaköy. Ümit was busy with a family matter, so we’d already said our goodbyes to him. We expected to take a cab to the airport, but Taner, Waverley’s driver, did something I would surely not have thought to do: he volunteered to get up early on his day off so that our last ride wouldn’t be an impersonal one. He arrived at 5:15 am to take us to the airport.

In Istanbul, traffic is never far from mind, but as Taner turned left out of the Radison Blu, I smiled. The Sea Road was ours this morning! We were in for a quick ride on the most consistently clogged road in the city. Over the years, I had sat for what seemed like hours on its surface, studying the shiny, black and white photographs of Atatürk’s life on the Yildiz Parki walls to pass the time. Now, we whizzed along, and I busied myself trying to think of something pithy to say to Taner to mark our last car ride in Istanbul.

We were approaching the Galata Bridge when I emerged from my reverie. Just ahead was Eminönü, the centuries-old, maze-like commercial area I’d been most drawn to during my time in the city. I hadn’t planned to see Eminönü again; Ümit would have taken us on a newer route west of the city. But here it was, in all its ancient splendor. And like me, it was just waking up.

The rising sun was hitting the dome of the Suleimaniye Mosque, Sinan’s sixteenth century masterpiece, at the very top of Istanbul’s Third Hill. The largest mosque in Istanbul: how many times had I climbed crowded streets past Istanbul University to visit this house of worship? How many times had I gained a sense of peace from its soaring, taupe and terra cotta interior and enjoyed a timeless view from the green expanse on its north side?

From Suleimaniye, Eminönü’s buildings cascaded down the hill toward me, so crowded together that they looked as though they stood on risers. It was as if the heart of Istanbul had convened a special chorus to bid me farewell. I felt emotions rising; how was I going to go on living without weekly trips to Eminönü?

Still dark, but its outlines visible, on the right side of the “choir” stood the small Rustem Pasha Mosque, another Sinan jewel, adorned with precious Iznik tiles. The mosque had been built on top of a block of businesses. I had been inside it a half dozen times and just the week before, had ascended to its courtyard on the way to a nearly-hidden spice vendor with Greg.

“Take off your shoes and go in,” I urged him impulsively, and he did so without protest, emerging some minutes later to remark, “It felt really good in there.”

The Spice Bazaar itself, Byzantine-striped and surprisingly diminutive given all that it contained, stood in the front row. To its left, the multi-domed 17^th century New Mosque, my absolute favorite; I always felt like I was inside a cloud when I stood in its sanctuary. The plaza between the two, usually bustling with visitors and pigeons, was dark and quiet. Behind them receded a tangle of little streets winding up to the Büyük Valide Han, where we loved climbing to the roof and hearing surround sound prayer call.

And finally, in front like a featured soloist, the magnificent Hamdi Restaurant, overlooking the Golden Horn, where we always took guests for their first lunch. They never failed to marvel at the view of water, medieval towers, and minarets that seemed only to lack a flying carpet or two.

How often had I walked in and out of Eminönü’s shops, buying boxes, cooking chocolate, coffee cups, Turkish Delight? Enjoying smoky whiffs of grilled beef, lamb, and chicken. Stopping for a morning su boreği, or an afternoon kunefe at the outdoor lokanta where a hatchet-faced man stood day after day grilling the melted cheese and syrup dessert. How many tiny tulip cups of tea did I sip in shops throughout Eminönü? How many times did I climb up through the maze to the Grand Bazaar or walk down from the Bazaar in the late afternoon when bescarfed Turkish shoppers were out in force?

We expatriates joked that everything in the world could be found behind the Spice Bazaar, and it was true. Buttons, fabric for a Christmas tree skirt, Turkish coffee, barbecue grills, outlet strips, Jordan almonds, the idiosyncratic red and white tea sets everyone used, googly eyes for a children’s craft project, umbrellas of every design. . . there was even an entire store dedicated to baby showers.

I wanted one more moment with the Eminönü choir, but we were already across the bridge. As Taner turned left, I gulped and blinked away tears. Sankar was intent on a text message to China, working as usual, which somehow seemed appropriate. He had worked much of the experience away, and that had given him other insights.

A moment later the fanciful pink Sirkeci train station, the last stop on the Orient Express, came into view. How I had enjoyed pointing out this belle époque edifice to visitors on our way to Sultanahmet. Now we were heading west on John F. Kennedy Caddesi, an eight-mile stretch that hugged the Sea of Marmara. The ruins of Emperor Theodosius’ double-thick sea walls lined both sides of the road. Built of stone and double-baked brick in the 400s and never breached, they were worn to an oatmeal-like texture, crumbling to nothing in some places and rising impressively in others. Several bus stops and two lighted billboards—one for KFC and one for something called Kofte-mania—stood in front of them, a metaphor for the mix of profound history and bright novelty that is Istanbul.

On we went, one mile, two, and then finally a big corner chunk of wall arose on our left, the Marmara Sea glistening behind it. This is where the sea walls turn at a right angle away to march across land, becoming the land walls. I looked to my right for a last glimpse of Constantinople’s land walls, climbing north with the slope of the land and then finally curving east to meet the water at the Golden Horn. They were considered state-of-the-art for a thousand years but, thanks in part to the invention of cannons, a section was finally breached in 1453, allowing the Turks their turn in this marvelous city.

The corner chunk was a farewell sentry. Now we were outside the walls, the Old City behind us, passing handsome modern apartment complexes, hotels, and a convention center. We turned and drove under the grand, Soviet-like arch that announced Atatürk Havalımanı, parked, and got out of the car, pulling suitcases loaded with Turkish clothing, jewelry and gifts. Taner could have simply dropped us off, but he came in and waited until all our ticketing and baggage was taken care of. Even at the very end, unexpected generosity. “We can never out-nice these people,” I thought for the umpteenth time.

We had come down from our magic carpet ride. Back in America I would feel an odd exhilaration: I had seen so much beauty, majesty, and wonder; I had challenged myself and grown more than I thought possible; surely I had something to new to offer to my country. But I also felt, with great conviction, that nothing else I experienced would ever be as profound.

Turkey. Asia Minor. Quite simply: where we come from.

Inside the airport, checked in and through passport control, I glanced at Sankar. He would never think of weeping in public, but as we headed to our gate, he stopped and looked back toward where we’d just bid Taner goodbye. He paused for a moment and then he looked at me beside him, and nodded. Together, we walked toward the waiting airplane with the same thought in mind. We had been happy here.

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This is an excerpt from my upcoming memoir . . .

I remember the air as a tangible presence. Clinging to my skin. Clogging my sinuses. Making me sluggish.

Off-stage, waiting in the wings, were the friends I would make in Turkey. Scene One called for loneliness. The setting: a chilled apartment and a sauna-like city below it.

On the last day of spring, 2010, I left Minnesota. It was difficult to say goodbye to Angela. Her return to Minnesota had been a gift, but now I would be away for most of her five years there. I was used to sending her, and her brother, Greg, off into the unknown. It felt strange to be the one facing uncertainty.

I took the midday Delta flight to New York and then flew overnight to Istanbul. Dark blue leather seats, the thin blanket slipping and sliding as I tried to get a night’s sleep.

Sankar picked me up at Atatürk airport with our new driver, a youngish, sweet-faced man named Ümit. The driver we’d had in January had wanted to work for us, but he ended up declining the job simply because he lived too far from us. With fifteen million people occupying a sprawling tangle of hills, shoreline, and narrow roads, Istanbul’s neighborhoods are almost Balkanized due to dense traffic.

Sankar’s secretary, Didem, a thin, almond-eyed woman in her thirties wearing a short, slim skirt and jacket, was also with Sankar, as one of her responsibilities was to help me get settled in Turkey. She introduced herself with the standard Turkish two-cheek kiss, and presented me with a small wrapped gift. It was a book called Istanbul: The Imperial City, written by John Freely, an American whose family, I would learn, had a long and accomplished history in Istanbul.

I thanked Didem, and she mentioned it would be nice for the two of us to have lunch sometime soon. I agreed and, delighted to be back in the Middle East, added to my “yes” an Arabic word I had used in Yemen: Insha-allah, meaning “if it is God’s will.” How I loved the richness of that word, inshaallah, in my mouth. It brought back my youthful adventurousness—and also my adaptability.

But the word didn’t have the effect I’d expected. A horrified expression passed quickly over Didem’s face and I saw her suppress a gasp. I wasn’t quite sure why. Was it because she didn’t expect me, a Westerner, to inject Islam into the conversation?

Recovering, Didem replied, “Of course.”

There were two ways to get from the airport to our apartment. On my first visit, we’d taken the majestic route, passing Istanbul’s ancient walls and the eastern side of the Old City, and crossing the Golden Horn. This time we took the other, a no-nonsense six-lane highway that cut a wide circle around the city, far from any monuments of interest.

Just as the suspension bridge leading over the Bosphorus came into view, we turned off the highway. Passing a mile of upscale shops and restaurants, we headed into a wooded residential area. As the road curved, the Bosphorus appeared, turquoise and majestic, far below. Then Ümit pulled up in front of our new apartment. He opened his door as soon as he shifted into park, sprinted around to where I was sitting, and opened my door. As we got out, he was already pulling suitcases from the trunk.

I’d been thinking about our home-to-be for the past five months, wondering if my impressions had indeed been sound. It looked to be so as we pushed open the ivy-clad wrought iron gate, followed the marble sidewalk through the now-verdant grounds, then went inside and up two stories. Inside, white walls and an expanse of polished wood floor greeted me. Our sea shipment was due to arrive any day, so the rooms were mostly empty, but Sankar had bought a black IKEA dining table and a couple of twin beds for the guest room.

I walked through the dining room and out the sliding door onto the balcony. The air was fresh and moist. To my right was a steep hill thick with eucalyptus and umbrella pines. An occasional Mediterranean-style home peeked through the foliage. In front of me lay the river-like, blue-green salt water of the Bosphorus. A container ship far below, with tiny-looking, building-block-like cargo, was coming around a bend from the north. The sun gleamed off the red roofs of the apartments and houses below. “It’s more beautiful than before,” I told Sankar.

I had never lived in a place with such a varied, majestic view. But I couldn’t enjoy it for long. We had places to go.

Our neighbors, Sema and Pinar Bakır, who occupied the entire floor below us, had met Sankar when he moved in, and in subsequent conversations had invited the two of us for tea. Thus, within only an hour of my arrival, we were sitting on a wide, white couch in their elegant apartment. I felt flattered, but knew this was not only Turkish hospitality, but also curiosity; the pair, just a few years older than us, had lived in the building for three decades and raised their children there. They wanted to know who we were.

Tall and thin, with shaggy white hair, Pinar was a retired textile industry executive. Sema was petite and animated, with caramel-colored hair curled in a pageboy. Both had attended Robert College, Turkey’s most prestigious high school, before going on for university degrees. Their English was nearly flawless, and as we talked, we learned that the U.S. was their second country. Their son, Can (pronounced “John”), had graduated from Brown University, and their daughter, Yasmin (“She’s an American citizen; she was born there,” Pinar informed us) was studying in Florida, where they owned an apartment and, oddly, a gas station.

“But it’s a BP and nobody is buying from BP right now,” Pinar grimaced. We all laughed. I had been unusually upset about the Deepwater Horizon oil spill of two months earlier, watching daily news intently and mourning the loss of wildlife and livelihood. But now, after less than 24 hours away from home, distance was altering my perspective, and the idea of Americans scurrying to other gas stations seemed silly and amusing.

We drank several tulip glasses of tea and helped ourselves to some golden squares of baklava. Then, with jet lag beginning to set in, we thanked Sema and Pinar, and headed upstairs to do some unpacking.

Sankar had purchased a desk for me, and he’d placed it in niche next to our living room window. There, with the help of the Internet, I could connect with the rest of the world. Sitting high above the water, with sky and sea all around, I felt like I was on a flying carpet. I greatly appreciated Sankar putting this in place for me before I arrived. It went a long way toward affirming that I was a serious person in need of workspace.

What a difference the Internet would make in this, my third foreign assignment! The first time I lived overseas I hadn’t even had a phone in my house. I had to go to the Cable and Wireless office in downtown Sana’a and “book a call,” three minutes for $27. In Costa Rica, the Internet and email were in their infancy, but Sankar had had a company cell phone, and I was able to call home frequently. This time I would have that and more. Thanks to email, Skype, and social media, I would never be far from family and friends.

A routine quickly emerged. My days alone would be long because Sankar’s workdays were long. Ümit picked him up by 7:15 a.m. each day so as to get across the bridge into Asia (the company was located just across the Fatih Sultan Mehmet Bridge—known to all as The Second Bridge) before traffic built up.

Turks had all sorts of strategies for beating the perennially heavy Istanbul traffic. Many chose to live and work on the same side of the Bosphorus. Others started work late and then continued into the evenings. Sankar preferred an earlier schedule, but his days inevitably dragged out with meetings, and he didn’t usually finish until after 6:30, when he’d call to tell me he and Ümit were just getting back onto the bridge and it would be another 45 minutes.

It soon became clear that at least some of Istanbul’s traffic jams were due to Turks’ generous tolerance of drivers who felt they had a right to back up in the middle of traffic and perform U turns, or make what I called extreme lane changes. It was a fine example of Turkish bigheartedness, but caused a lot of lost time.

In the first weeks, I filled my daytime hours with two kinds of activities: getting something accomplished in the house, i.e. shopping for necessities; and getting exercise. On shopping days, Ümit would return from Asia to pick me up, and he and I would head out, often to Istanbul’s European branch of IKEA, located in a tangle of roads about a half hour west. At that store, whose floor plan and product offerings closely resembled Minnesota’s IKEA, albeit sans the Swedish meatballs, he would walk with me along the store’s marked pathways, crowded with shoppers, stopping while I selected items—a skillet, washcloths, vases, a bread pan, throw pillows—to place into our gigantic yellow bag. Going to a furniture store with an unrelated man felt odd, and I wondered if Ümit didn’t also feel strange. Did we look like some kind of family unit?

Other days I would walk down to the Sea Road that bordered the Bosphorus. Our apartment sat at the top of a hill that was perhaps eight hundred feet above the sea. Several roads led downward, the least trafficked one little more than a cobbled path through cypress and magnolia trees. Descending via switchbacks, I rounded bends, enjoying fresh forest air. Sweeping views of Bebek bay appeared: modern pastel apartment buildings along the curved coastline and little fishing boats like bright stars flung across the water.

As I stood there enjoying the vista, Turkey felt brand new to me, our entire experience waiting to unfold, and I reminded myself that, despite spending my days alone, I was extremely fortunate to live amid such stunning scenery. This little pep talk would give me a much-needed surge of optimism: good things would certainly happen to me—to us—in such a dazzling, exotic place.

When I reached the bottom of the hill, I usually turned left and strolled into the former fishing village-turned-upscale-town of Bebek. I’d pass the huge pastel, Art Nouveau-style Egyptian consulate, under renovation. Then an attractive, seaside park and playground that featured, in addition to a kiddie playground, adult exercise equipment (a stout Turkish man standing in the stirrups of an exercise contraption, scissoring his legs back and forth). Finally, before Bebek’s actual downtown, a McDonald’s jammed right next to a tiny old mosque, the domes and arches fitting nicely into a photo frame, surely a metaphor for modern Turkey.

When I heard we were moving to Turkey, I wondered if I could keep up the moderate jogging routine I’d started some years before. In Yemen, the only option would have been to run with the U.S. Marines in the pre-dawn. Otherwise all the wild dogs in the neighborhood would follow along and all the children would laugh and jeer. What would I do in Istanbul? Was I going to have to give up running, as I’d done in Yemen because I was in a Muslim country?

Now, as I walked, I took note of female garb. I passed three ladies wearing skirts down to their feet and long, pointy headscarves. A slim bareheaded woman wearing black running capris and a yellow T shirt with a jazzy design jogged alongside a male friend. An older woman with blond hair sported a low-cut pink ruffled shirt and dark-colored Bermuda shorts. A young woman in a green striped mini dress walked along chatting on her cell phone. An elderly woman with a cane was dressed just like my mother: a loose button-down top and polyester slacks. With my faded navy shorts and short-sleeved T shirt, I wondered where I fit along this continuum.

The main street of Bebek featured a sidewalk florist, a fish market, several seafood restaurants, a boutique hotel, a tiny waffle shop, an ice cream shop that was no more than two feet wide, with two scoop-wielding men squeezed next to bins of the frozen treats, and a Starbucks. In the window of an elegant confectioner called Baylan was a display of sugary, bright yellow, pink, and lime green sandwich cookies that I learned were French-inspired, called macarons. At an Italian espresso shop, Café Nero, the employees treated me kindly when I struggled to order a pastry.

Just as my newness provided jolts of pure wonderment, it also brought stabs of self-doubt and uncertainty. During these walks in Bebek, I felt as if everyone around me could tell I was brand new. Although Turks were more varied in hair color and skin tone than I’d expected, very few had my pink complexion. I wasn’t a dowdy scarf-wearer, but neither were my clothes up-to-date or flirtatious. Worse—and the real reason for my self-doubt—was that I knew I’d be unable to respond if someone spoke to me in Turkish.

Once I saw another woman who was surely a foreigner. She was walking a half block ahead of me with four small children. The youngest, who looked about three, was wearing a pink tutu, leotard, and tights—and getting surprised glances from passersby. I would have caught up with the woman and introduced myself, but I was still too far into my shell—so I simply smiled at the idea that someone stuck out more than I did.

After buying what I needed, perhaps a half-kilo of deep red, ripe strawberries or some freshly-caught sea bass for supper, I’d head back up the hill, a task that became harder every day, even though my leg muscles were getting stronger. The reason? With each passing day of summer, Istanbul became more humid.

Wet and sticky. After only a few steps up the hill, my clothes would begin to adhere to me. My bra felt like a hot, damp harness weighing me down. I paid silent tribute to the feminist bra-burners of my generation and kept climbing.

Up to the top of the hill twelve minutes later, wet and panting. Turn the key into our apartment building and climb two flights of stairs. A change of clothes, or before that a walk around the apartment in my underwear, room air conditioner blasting on high. A cold drink of water or a sip of strange-tasting Turkish Diet Coke. Sankar and I had noticed a swimming pool underneath a few inches of snow when we looked at the apartment in January. What we didn’t know was that the pool wasn’t functioning. The building next door had one with a lovely, deep blue mosaic pattern. We could see it from our kitchen, gurgling day and night, just out of reach.

If our pool was still not operating next summer, I decided I’d buy a kiddie pool, place it on the deep, enclosed balcony off of our upstairs bedroom, and lower myself into it for a few blissful minutes after every walk.

Back in Minnesota, I had imagined myself spending my time sightseeing, immersing myself in Istanbul history, perhaps with a notebook in hand to record impressions. But I did little of that during my early days in Istanbul. This was partly because I’d seen the major monuments in January. And, during a brief late June visit from our nephew, Jonathan, we had gone to the same sites again, alas gaining little insight except how to capture a parking spot near the Spice Bazaar. I had little idea of the many lesser but also interesting things there were to see, but I was becoming aware of how complex the city was. Since Istanbul’s most compelling sites lay in its densest, most bafflingly labyrinthine streets, I lacked the confidence to take off by myself and find my way.

Later, I would blithely ride a bus and then the tram to the Grand Bazaar or into the tangle of streets behind the Spice Bazaar to pick up a flour sifter or some taffeta ribbon or some ziplock bags, but that was many months—even years—away.

For now, my confusion, or fear of confusion, kept me close to home. And most of all, as I recorded in my blog, “the high humidity discourages me from doing much exploring.”

Eat a light lunch, read a book, work on some writing, and perhaps take a nap. One of the unanticipated delights of the apartment was that it was completely uncluttered. Closets were half empty, drawers went unused, and almost no mail came in. Thus none of the constant, low-level self-reproach that accompanied me as I moved around my messy Minnesota house.

I might wash a load of clothes, but even that wasn’t challenge-free. To use the stacked washer/dryer that sat in the corner of our kitchen, I needed to determine which English concepts were represented by the letters printed on them, or figure out the meaning of the few icons on display, something that confused me even back home. Didem had downloaded and sent over English manuals for my microwave, stove, oven and dishwasher, but there was none available for my Turkish Arcelik brand washing machine. I finally decided simply to set the dial on the icon that portrayed a full tub of water with waves on top.

Although there were plenty of restaurants in all price ranges nearby, we seldom went out to eat. I generally cooked a simple dinner for the two of us: spaghetti and meat sauce or rice, a salad and baked chicken. To operate the oven, I was having to get used to Turkish icons, the Celsius temperature scale, and convection heat.

After dinner, I would often walk down the hill a second time with Sankar, for delicious, homemade gelato. We dubbed our walks, “the gelato challenge” because our taste treats—coconut, chocolate, strawberry and even gül, rose-flavored, in cups or sugar cones—would come at the price of yet another climb.

Istanbul evenings, particularly near the Bosphorus, were breezy and slightly cooler than the days, but alas, surrounded as we were by water, the humidity remained. At the bottom of the hill, the two of us would often turn, not left toward Bebek, but right, to walk alongside the water before doubling back to the gelateria.

A wide cement path stretched for over a mile, punctuated by sturdy wooden benches, and Turks were out taking the air from early morning until late at night. Owners tinkered on their docked boats, making repairs or enjoying a drink, and clumps of men stood at intervals fishing. The area around each fisherman was wet and the cement smooth and slanted ever so slightly toward the water. When I finally ventured to jog in this direction, I perennially feared either being caught in cast-back fishing line, or falling on the slick pavement and sliding into the water, taking a fisherman along with me.

As we strolled the curving pathway, we watched huge ships sweep dramatically into view: oil tankers and their tugboats, container ships, and the occasional cruise ship, gleaming white and commanding in size. Across the water were the rounded, misty hills of Asia, some sections green with foliage and others a tumble of colorful, geometric dwellings. On this (European) stretch of the Bosphorus, lovely old Ottoman row homes lined the Sea Road, and modern apartments climbed up the steep hill, resort-like real estate punctuated by ancient fountains and moss-covered stone walls. An unaccustomed feeling of glamour came over me, and I imagined I was an extra in a 1950’s Italian movie. All I needed were dark glasses and long, filmy scarf.

Our walks were a splendid way to people-watch and refine our sense of our new countrymen. Diminutive Turkish matrons strolled along with their husbands, often not much taller than they were: two stout, obviously devoted people. Young men in groups of three or four conversed animatedly, sometimes walking large, prancing dogs. Pretty young women, some arm in arm, wore chic dresses and stylish flats. They had long hair in varying shades, from dark to light brown and occasionally even ash blonde. Not so different from women I’d observed while traveling in Spain and Italy. Couples walked hand in hand or nuzzled together on benches facing the water.

Once we saw two older men who had just taken a dip in the Bosphorus. They were pale and hefty—and naked except for wet, white underpants.

And then the headscarf ladies, their sentiments mysterious and intriguing. Despite the humidity, many wore slacks and belted lightweight trench coats. Their colorful patterned headscarves were folded into triangles and pulled forward so that the rims protruded an inch or so on either side of their faces. A black edge of fabric stretched across their foreheads from underneath their scarves.

I had brought to Turkey a new trench coat that I thought flattering, and also appropriate for Istanbul’s reputedly rainy winter weather. It would draw no compliments when I began to wear it, several months later, however: only puzzled glances. I would learn that non-headscarfed Turks had conceded trench coat terrain to the pious, and never, ever, wore that style.

Occasionally we saw a more chic “headscarf woman,” (my term; I’d learn that Turks called them kapalı kadın, covered ladies) wearing skinny jeans and high heels, the back of her scarf tucked in so it resembled a hood. But in general, headscarf women reminded me not of anything Islamic, but of dowdy Russian babushkas.

I knew from past experience that I didn’t want to be without a book in a foreign country. So, even though electronic book readers were widely available, I bought fourteen actual, not virtual books to ship to Turkey.

It was the year of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, by Steig Larsson, and I had that. Also a Hmong memoir, The Latehomecomer, by Kao Kalia Yang; The Help, by Kathryn Stockett. Authors Alice Munro, Anne Tyler, Elizabeth Berg, and Colum McCann.

Although I’d have access to several English language newspapers, and subscriptions to The Economist and The New Yorker, these books were absorbing and provided welcome distraction from the rigors of being new. But I was going through them too fast. Two down by the end of June. Another six by the end of July, so only six left for August, and then what? I was trying to take each day at a time, trying not to fret about what would happen next, but I was already getting bored, and I found myself wondering how I’d fill the time ahead.

I was looking forward to meeting people—anyone! I had learned from my years in Costa Rica not to depend on locals for my social circle. If I got to know some Turks, that would be great, but I was going to assume most were busy with family obligations, jobs, and friends that were permanent, not temporary. It is often a badge of expatriate honor to count “authentic” locals rather than one’s own countrymen as friends. But I wasn’t going to play that game this time. “I’m going to be friends with whoever is nice to me,” I declared to a former expatriate friend back home. Thus I hastened to contact the International Women of Istanbul (IWI) group, emailing them within days of my arrival. But I got no reply.

I checked and rechecked the IWI website, finally discovering a message inviting all those interested to “come to our opening meeting on September 23, 2010.” The end of September? That was almost three months away! Why would they wait that long to get things started? I wondered, feeling a burst of panicked dismay.

It dawned on me that I had arrived at the beginning of the down season, when expatriates left the city for their home countries. Indeed, I learned that schools had let out in mid-June and wouldn’t start again until mid-September. As far as meeting foreigners who were looking for friends, for the next three months, I was out of luck. Even language schools were closed, scheduled to reopen only in September. This discovery hit me hard.

Summer, a season always achingly short and precious back in Minnesota, now seemed long and tiresome. I figured I’d eventually make friends, but I also wanted to find something meaningful to do here. Improving my language skills was a first step. How I wished I could at least get started on that.

The optimism I felt on my scenic walks down to the Bosphorus was evanescent. Back in the apartment, I tried not to complain, tried not to cast a negative pall on what was after all still a brand new experience, but I did react with anger when Sankar arrived home from work later than he’d promised.

Sankar knew I wasn’t having an easy summer, but he was busy trying to make a strong impression. Since his job was regional, he traveled from Russia all the way down to South Africa, and from Poland in the west all the way to Dubai in the east. Just a week after I arrived, to my dismay, he left on a six-day trip through Eastern Europe. Now I had sixteen waking hours each day to fill. What was I going to do?

Some people have asked me if I could have travelled with him, and the answer is yes, I could have. I had been to both Quebec City and Vancouver with Sankar on business trips, and I’d taken a few days from our look-see visit in January to accompany him to Warsaw. There, the company hired a guide to show me the major sites. But now, just as I was getting used to Turkey, did I want to be alone in yet another new country, one with a language I had no familiarity with and possibly a different script as well? No, I’d rather settle down in Istanbul.

The World Cup was being held in South Africa, and every evening I climbed to our upstairs TV room, turned on a large Arcelik floor fan, and watched the televised matches. The commentary was all in Turkish, but I tried to see if I could pick out words from what was mostly unintelligible. Unfortunately, işte, a colloquialism for “look at that!” was the only word I could isolate. I will forever associate işte with the sight of players moving a ball down the field and the hooting sound of vuvuzelas.

So there I was. In the most beautiful setting I’d ever lived in, but not happy. Mindful of the passing of time, yet eager for three months to absolutely vanish. Surrounded by history, but stranded in my apartment.

I knew I needed to be patient and, above all, avoid the temptation to blame Sankar for my predicament. “I feel the need for bravery as I face many quiet days before my plans and ideas kick in and before any friendships are made,” I wrote. Waiting backstage, waiting for my cue to emerge.

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This is an excerpt from my upcoming memoir. . .

The wings of the plane tilted, and with it, my stomach. I stared out the window and saw a jigsaw puzzle of land and water. Turkey has about 5,000 miles of coastline; I had located the Aegean, Mediterranean and Black Sea on a map back home. Now, a bird’s eye view confirmed how water-bound Istanbul itself was.

The sea cut a north-south path through the city. From the plane it looked like a shiny thread. The water massed further north (pale blue mist) and south of the city (a vast sheet of sunlit water). This was the maritime terrain the Eastern Roman Empire had inhabited seventeen centuries ago. These were the waterways whose shores the Crusaders had plundered and, a few centuries later, the Ottomans had captured, bringing an end to Byzantium.

The plane took a sharp southerly turn and now my view was entirely of water. We dropped and landed at Ataturk International Airport. It was January, 2010, and we had arrived for our company-sponsored look-see visit. As we taxied I saw planes from the neighborhood: Emirates Airline, El Saudia, Aeroflot.

Disembarking, Sankar and I trudged through a huge, ultra-modern terminal, picked up our bags and headed to the Hertz concession to meet our company-hired driver. I waited next to a flower shop while Sankar filled out Hertz forms, and memorized the word for flower. Çiçek. My first word of Turkish.

We followed the coast toward the city, driving on a smoother, wider boulevard than I had imagined Istanbul having. The sea beside us was as gray as the wintry sky. A three-story remnant of crenellated masonry layered in tan and reddish brown appeared on our right between the road and the sea. Then another piece. These, Sankar said, were 1600-hundred-year-old ruins of the walls that had surrounded Constantinople, making it impregnable.

Taller, more intact walls with similar striped layers appeared on our left. Some had tiny business establishments—one looked to be a fish restaurant—built into their lower layers. The Old City, ancient-looking, crooked dwellings and occasional low minaret, peeked from behind these walls. Then we turned away from the sea, curving around what I would learn was the Golden Horn, the point at which the Bosphorus and the Sea of Marmara meet, forming a sheltered harbor and a narrow, curving peninsula on which Constantinople was built. We crossed a bridge and craned our necks to see dark-clad men holding fishing poles over the edge. “The Galata Bridge,” Sankar commented. I had read about that.

Continuing alongside what now looked like a river, after a mile or so, the driver turned into a U-shaped courtyard.

The company was putting us up at the Four Seasons Hotel Bosphorus. We had arrived too early to check in, and sat down in the restaurant to wait for our rooms. Sankar ordered a sandwich and I ordered a bowl of soup from an English menu. I received a rich pumpkin-colored lentil concoction flecked with herbs. It was so savory that I asked the waitress to write down its name in the little notebook I had bought to record Turkish words. The first entry: Ezogelin çorbasa, bride’s soup.

After we ate, the day manager, a striking man with black hair and eyes, and pale skin, led us down a lush, carpeted corridor past cases that held bejeweled Ottoman caftans and embroidered Oriental rugs. The king-sized bed in our junior suite was heaped with white pillows and comforters, an antique-looking desk at its foot. A sitting area featured silver trays of nuts and fruits, bottles of wine and sparkling water tucked alongside. We didn’t stay in hotels this plush back home, and I was both astonished and delighted at these enticements.

If we looked at an acute angle out the window, we could see the cold, gray waters of what I now realized was the Bosphorus, separating the city’s European and Asian sides. We were on the European side: I dubbed it the east coast of Europe.

Our First Glimpse

In the late afternoon, we ventured out into the wintry twilight to explore our surroundings. The area, despite being adjacent to the Bosphorus and thus presumably high-rent, was undistinguished, mostly small shops—a copy center, a café selling fresh-squeezed juices, a simit bakery (simits are sesame encrusted, bagel-like rings Turks eat as a morning snack)—that catered to Bahçeşehir (bah chey sha HEAR), a commuter university.

We walked tentatively down the main road on which we’d come, amidst drab-looking concrete buildings darkened with precipitation. An iskelesi, or port, lay a few blocks further south, and we headed there and watched the flow of dark-clothed, serious-looking people striding across the Sea Road to board ferries to Asia.

When I can’t speak their language, people appear inscrutable. It’s like looking at a book written in hieroglyphics. I knew that as soon as I learned some Turkish, I would feel kinship with these folks—and I knew that would remain; I still felt kinship with Arabs because I once spoke their language. But for now the Turks were alien.

Next to the iskelesi was an expansive cement square with a huge iron statue of a man named Barbaros. According to the plaque, he was a pirate turned mayor of Istanbul. There were also several tea shops and a couple of restaurants catering to people in transit.

How central and familiar this location would become to me. I would have weekly Turkish conversations with a beloved teacher in one of the restaurants, accept an invitation for tea at one of the little çay shops, and routinely meet friends at the Barbaros statue. I’d catch the spanking clean city bus heading north along the Sea Road after Turkish class each week, and every time I passed the Four Seasons Bosphorus, I’d think about how timid we’d been “back then,” how complicated and mysterious the city had seemed.

As we headed back to the hotel, it began to snow.

We walked down to breakfast the next morning dizzy with jet lag. It was a lavish buffet attended by a half dozen impeccably dressed staff members who greeted us with slight bows and faint, proper smiles. It held several Western cereals—flakes and chocolate puffs—and an array of pastries, fresh fruits, and omelets-to-order. Nearby were what I surmised were Turkish morning favorites: peeled tomato slices, cucumbers, olives and various white and yellow cheeses. A giant honeycomb stood upright, from which one could scrape fresh honey, a round table held a dizzying selection of jams and jellies, and a huge, cut glass bowl held by far the creamiest, most delicious yogurt I’d ever tasted.

The diners surrounding us were eclectic: European businessmen, several older, distinguished-looking couples speaking what sounded like German, a table of white-clad Saudis, some young men from India, who got up after eating and went out onto the terrace to throw clots of newly fallen snow at each other. With my damp hair and modest sweater and slacks, I felt underdressed; I supposed one should spruce up in a hotel like this.

Under the Facade

By our second day, I felt self-possessed enough to smile at the breakfast attendants, and I commented to one, a stocky young man with large features, how much I was enjoying the yogurt. He surprised me with a wide grin and, as I turned back toward the food, he leaned toward me and whispered conspiratorially, “I can show you special Turkish way to eat yogurt.”

I watched, half-filled plate in hand, as he hurried off toward the kitchen. After a few moments he emerged, a small bowl of yogurt in one hand and a rough, earthenware pitcher in the other. He set them down at our table and I peered into the pitcher. He told me it was molasses. “In my village,” he said, “this our breakfast. It help your blood.” Yes, molasses is rich in iron.

He drizzled the molasses generously over the yogurt, and then gestured to me to stir. The mixture turned an unappealing reddish brown, and I hesitated, but he was waiting for me to try it. The taste was surprising: rich and tangy, and as I savored a spoonful, he stood, beaming.

I beamed back. If this was any indication of Turkish friendliness, I would be in good hands.

The company had hired a guide to take us to the Old City, and we set off alongside Elif, a pretty, impossibly petite divorcee with flowing light brown curls and elegant knee-high leather boots. Rattling off information and occasionally stopping to smoke a cigarette, she hustled us through the 6^th century Hagia Sophia, the 400-year-old Blue Mosque, and the 500-year-old Grand Bazaar.

The Hagia Sophia. What were my first impressions of this architectural wonder? Thousand-year-old, glittering mosaic panels adorned the entrance to this church-turned-mosque-turned-museum. Inside, its cavernous sanctuary glowed in grays and golds, dwarfing even large groups of visitors. It is said that the Statue of Liberty can fit upright under its roof.

Painted high above the sanctuary, were frescos of angels and the Virgin Mary. All around the main dome on huge medallions, however, were the calligraphed Arabic names of the Muslim prophets: the Hagia Sofia is one of few buildings in the world that honors both Christianity and Islam.

When Elif mentioned that the structure we were standing in dated from the late five hundreds, I tried to imagine what a typical 6^th century dwelling was like, and what awe this church must have inspired. Later I read the words of Prince Vladimir of Kiev upon visiting the Hagia Sophia in the tenth century:

We knew not whether we were on heaven or earth. For on earth there is no such splendor or beauty, and we are at a loss how to describe it. We only know that God dwells there among men, and their service is fairer than the ceremonies of other nations. For we cannot forget that beauty.

Vladimir immediately converted to Christianity, and soon his fellow Russians did as well.

Next to the Hagia Sofia along the Divan Yolu (Divine Road) was a structure nearly as large as the Blue Mosque. It was like no other functioning place of worship I’d ever seen. None of the dark crevasses and sharp, pointed surfaces of cathedrals of similar age, its walls were adorned with tens of thousands of pale blue, geometrically patterned tiles, trimmed with lacy stonework, and supported by a series of voluptuous sunlit arches. Its central dome and four half-domes let in ample light despite the overcast sky. Radiating ease and optimism, it made me feel like I was inside a cloud on a sunny day.

Elif also took us briefly through Istanbul’s Grand Bazaar, a 500-year old warren of ancient guilds covered over into a hectic, patchwork shopping mall. There, a maze of stores overflowed with glossy silk scarves and rugs, silver and gold jewelry, and gaudy ceramic plates and bowls. She took us into the silver bedesten, the oldest, innermost arcade of the bazaar, where we stopped to have tea served in tiny, tulip-shaped glasses, and then turned a corner and entered a tiny, cluttered shop called Nick’s Calligraphy. There a stocky, balding older man with a gentle expression on his face spent his days writing words of wisdom—in various languages: Arabic, Hebrew, English—on leaves. His work, adorning the walls of his shop (along with paeans about him from various world newspapers) was, he told us, an effort to promote world peace.

The day had been overwhelming, and it was hard for me to grasp the significance of what I’d seen. I was finding it difficult to fit the new information into any existing mental schema. What events were occurring, what was going on during those centuries in other, more familiar parts of the world? Had I given it a bit more thought, I would have realized that the Grand Bazaar was built just a few decades before Columbus reached the New World. The Blue Mosque was constructed as The Mayflower arrived in New England. And the Hagia Sophia? As it was being built, the Mayan kingdom of Central America was at its peak, the Middle Ages were beginning, and the legendary King Arthur was fighting his last battle. But for now, the new facts remained unmoored in my mind. It would take many visits for me to start fitting them into a coherent whole.

The next day, we embarked on a whirlwind of lunches and dinners. We spent a morning at the company’s offices, in an ultra-modern complex just over one of the Bosphorus bridges and into Asia, meeting various managers, and the head secretary, Belma, who had grown up in the U.K. We had a nice evening with Managing Director Karim and his wife, Lamia, both from Algeria, that led to an invitation from Lamia to me for a day at an elegant mall north of the city. That complex featured a luscious, eye-popping, indoor fresh fruit and vegetable market. What a contrast to home where mall food offerings centered around Cinnabon and Panda Express.

We had a meal at the home of marketing manager Ebru, located in a new high-rise adjoining an urban mall built to resemble a canyon (Google “Kanyon Istanbul” for interesting pictures). We ate dinner with several young company managers and their wives.

One inevitably makes gaffes when dealing with new people and cultures. Many, perhaps most, people brush these off as inadvertent. I would need to fight my tendency to dwell on my mistakes, letting them sour my mood. At Ebru’s apartment, I used the term “river” to refer to the Bosphorus. Ebru instantly snapped, “Don’t call it the river. It is the sea.”

At another dinner, this one on the glassed-in rooftop restaurant of the Galata Hotel, adjoining the fabulous seven-hundred-year-old Galata Tower, I oh-so-casually mentioned my familiarity with the writing of Orhan Pamuk, Turkey’s 2006 Nobel Laureate. Burcu, the pretty blonde wife of company business manager, Gökhan, had a curt response: “Try another author. He’s not for us.” I was taken aback, but any unhappiness Burcu might have felt didn’t seem to linger. Later I learned that Pamuk had commented publicly about the 1915 Turkish massacre of Armenians, something for which most Turks do not believe Turkey was responsible.

I could have mulled over these mistakes, chastising myself, but I didn’t have to. Something about the immediate rebukes (uncommon where I come from) followed by brisk, cheerful changes of topic, seemed to indicate I was already forgiven, and obviated the need for self-admonishment.

The myriad of social events was exhilarating at first, but then it grew tiring. After a week, the weather was still dark and wet, and Sankar and I were exhausted and enervated. “Do you think I could go home now?” I asked Sankar. “These meetings are more relevant to you than to me. Nobody will mind if I’m not here.”

“No,” he replied. “Absolutely not. People will feel bad; the Turks will think you don’t like them or their country.” I argued back, but then realized he was right.

In Costa Rica I had felt completely insignificant, with little purpose in my life. Mired in these sentiments, I had failed to recognize that I indeed had a role to fulfill, that of the wife of the Managing Director. Although I had no intention of giving a poor impression, no desire to hurt Costa Rican feelings, I later realized that my lackluster demeanor had been noted. Thus an unhappy, self-centered person can be unconsciously inconsiderate—or worse.

Now, in the privacy of our room, after indulging in a bit more self-pity, I settled down for a nap, and then decided to rally.

A Room with a View

We had to find a place to live. “If you don’t get an apartment with a view of the Bosporus, you’re doing something wrong,” Sankar’s boss had told him before we left. So we set out with a view in mind.

In tiny Costa Rica, our rent had been taken out of the company’s profits from that country. I had felt uncomfortable renting an expensive house, and so we had selected something relatively modest. Now, Sankar’s salary would be paid out of profits from the entire region—fifteen or so subsidiaries—so our expenditure wouldn’t burden any one country. “Let Saudi Arabia pay for our apartment,” I announced. I was perfectly willing to rent something top-of-the-line, partly to compensate for the upheaval of moving us to Asia Minor, and partly because after working—and traveling—for the company for almost thirty years, I felt we deserved it.

Off we went early one morning with company realtor Yuksel, a handsome, shaved-head man in his thirties. We had to pick our way down icy steps to reach the first place, a large, oddly configured house on the slope of a hill. I pictured myself inside it, nobody around. Too lonely.

Our subsequent stops were at apartment compounds in suburban neighborhoods, groups of tall, modern buildings arranged around walking paths or tennis courts. Apparently there were many of these in newer sections of the city. The hallways leading to the units were invariably darkened and hushed, and in the dimly lit lower level of one building, I watched a foreign woman swimming languid laps alone in a pool. I shuddered, picturing myself doing the same thing, day after day. Too isolating.

Just after noon we saw a place that looked more promising. It was a bright, airy apartment located in a three-story building at the crest of a hill about ten miles north of the Old City.

The apartment’s walls were spanking white and clean. There was an ample living-dining room, a narrow, gleaming, kitchen, and three bedrooms. The thought of hosting visitors wasn’t far from our minds, and the two bedrooms and bath located in a wing off the kitchen seemed a cozy, private space for our anticipated guests.

The unit itself had two levels and both had large, east-facing windows that overlooked the Bosphorus. We walked upstairs and out onto the balcony off the master bedroom. It had snowed the night before and the trees were frosted with white, the water far below gray under leaden skies. All around us, lights twinkled even though it was just after noon. The effect was both familiar and bewitching. We looked down on a point of land that jutted into the water. From where we were standing, it looked like we were at the prow of a ship. I later read that this was the Bosphorus’ narrowest point.

I could live here, I thought. Sankar agreed. We told Yuksel to go ahead with a rental agreement. Our address would be Bebek, which meant “baby;” the area, only a few years before had been a fishing village, just a baby compared to Istanbul. For the next five months until I moved to Turkey, I’d have this apartment as a touchstone, a cheery place to mentally decorate and subliminally move into. Something to look forward to.

We had spent ten days in Istanbul’s least inspiring weather. But the visit had done its job. Our luxurious accommodations and the steady beat of kindness and hospitality had kept me optimistic. We had seen a bit of the city, and I had also caught a glimpse of myself as Trailing Spouse 2.0. It helped that I had set out with—and mostly maintained—a positive outlook. I was pleased with myself.

I still didn’t know how I would spend my time in Istanbul, but I knew there would be other women like me looking for friends. Turkey had long been a place for wanderers seeking their fortunes. I guessed a path for me would open up as well.

The Turks I’d met had been surprisingly assertive, yet eager to abandon formality for personal connection. My impression was of dark sumptuousness—the dark mainly because of the soggy weather; I’d learn that in other seasons, Istanbul basked under sunny skies—and of fortunes being made here even while my own country was mired in recession.

As I packed my suitcase to leave, I tucked into it gifts I’d purchased for friends at the Grand Bazaar: bars of olive oil soap, tiny patterned ceramic bowls, Turkish hand towels. They were cheap representations of a place I couldn’t begin to fathom, but they were a start. I couldn’t wait to tell my friends all that I was discovering.

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A month-long visit to Minnesota has ended. It was a whirlwind of self-indulgent fun. Friends and family invited me home and took me out for lunches and coffee. I saw a hilarious comedy show called Obama Mia, and four summer movies, the best of them Woody Allen’s Midnight in Paris. With Angela, I walked the streets of the Minnesota State Fair and the three-mile road around the Landscape Arboretum. On foot, I also circumnavigated Lake of the Isles and Lake Calhoun.

The sun shone every day. I read local news and basked in Sunday afternoons with the New York Times. I ate fresh bagels and crispy BLTs, take-n-bake bread, and chocolate chips right from the bag. I shopped at Target, cleaned up after a basement flood, and weeded a yard neglected for a year.

It was hard to leave. Although I enjoy Turkey, I don’t have a strong emotional connection to it, and the tie could be cut relatively easily. The clock may be ticking on Angela’s time in Minnesota, and I’m painfully aware that I am missing another year of it. And because of my teaching job, I probably won’t get the chance to return until June of 2012.

Now back in Istanbul, I gaze at the items I brought from the States to make my life better. Ziplock bags. Precise pens. Season Four of Mad Men. It is always to fun to make that wish list, and highly exhilarating to track each item down and buy it. But back here, I realize they will have only a negligible effect on my life. They won’t help me gain a deeper understanding of the Turkish culture, and they won’t help fill my days and weeks here that, though interesting, are thin compared to my rich Minnesota life.

I got back to Istanbul on Tuesday. As we rounded one of the last bends in the road leading to our apartment, I caught sight of the Bosphorus far below, gleaming teal in the late afternoon sun. Its ship horns ease us awake in the mornings, and we cross its acrobatic suspension bridges to go to work. We watch it change from pale to deeper blue and finally to violet each day, and its frequent evening fireworks delight us. At the sight of this ancient, storied body of water I felt a warmth arise within me. Is it possible to love two countries at the same time? I don’t know. But it seemed clear that our upcoming months in Turkey are going to be just fine.

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